It Goes Badly

 Everything has gone to shit. I don't even know where to start. Probably you don't want to hear me complain, so if you want, just skip this, ok?

I am really stressed. I am trying to exercise and be more active. It is making my stomach hurt. I would rather not have pain, but if I don't exercise then I stay fat and my a1c stays too high and I feel worse overall. So I guess I will just have stomach pain until I figure out something else.

I can't focus very well. I have made several mistakes with even the simplest tasks. I am getting mixed up about days, dates, and times. I did way too much driving back and forth yesterday, and still managed to be late, because I can't seem to get anywhere on time. 

In-laws are a problem. Not just causing problems, or being difficult, but literally every interaction with them is a problem. I can't tell you how many times I have considered moving out of state. That wouldn't solve anything, and would probably cause more issues, but if we lived elsewhere I could be at peace in my house.

I blocked 2 of their phone numbers. I don't think they have figured it out yet. 

My show has been extended. I haven't been back up there since the reception. Opening night had a small gathering. I assume the show is doing well since it is now running two weeks longer, but I haven't gotten any information on what people are doing when they come in the gallery.

Because there is so much happening right now, reading the cards has become difficult. Instead of a couple of cards falling out, a dozen cards will fall out at once. I won't be able to understand all of them. I tried switching to a different deck this morning, but I had 5 cards fall out. Now 5 is easier to read than 12, but I'm not sure if I read them right. I read them as one story, but I think it was two stories converging. I don't know. I'm confused.

Since more problems arose with the internet, porn, in-laws, and the boys, I haven't been able to clean the house, tend my garden, cook, or make art. Everything happened on a Tuesday and I spent all day trying to sort things out. I completely forgot Tuesday is boy scout meeting night. I forgot to clean the bathroom and wash clothes. All I did the whole day was listen to people lie to me. I got hung up on multiple times. That was what lead to me blocking numbers.

I had some plans for making mirrors and adding Magick into the process. My first plan wouldn't work because of my choice of tools, and on the second attempt I couldn't find the mirrors. On the third attempt I realized I was out of yarn and the purple shade I did have was way too dark. But since I sewed a hanging sleeve to the bottom of an eagle instead of the top, I probably don't need to attempt art right now anyway.

I decided to home school my daughter for first grade. I hope by second grade I can either afford a private school, or I will have gained permission to send her to school in a different county. 

I have one boy in summer school. The school lied to me about how the program would work, what day it would be, how many days he would go, and then told me they were having a transportation problem so I would have to take him and pick him up, but every Thursday there's about 25 buses in the school parking lot. 

There's more, I'm just tired and can't think.