Monday, June 19, 2017

A Sort of Crossroads

I am still not sure what my daily practice should be. I still seem to be stuck because what I thought was going to work didn't.

I've gone through lots of changes in the nearly 20 years I've been a practicing Witch. I stopped doing long rituals. I stopped doing any kind of ritual or spell on holidays. There's been times when I felt drawn to other magick or Goddesses. I have tried new things. I have thought about old things in new ways.

What I used to do when I was trying to find my way was to rewrite my book of shadows. Sometimes I take out basic information and just have a few spells I really liked. Other times I would take a published spell book and add my own notes, clippings, and art. I've had hand written and electronic versions. What I have now is Pinterest. I do love Pinterest but I wish it could be organized better. I would like to have sub-boards- for example opening my Wyrrd Sisters board and getting a drop menu for fictional Witches, sexy Witches, art depicting Witches, and so on. I'd also like if my recipes board could be sorted into meat, veggie, and desserts without having to create new boards.

But anyway, having a large amount of information that I would like to sort through, organize, and review my feelings about, how many of you would like to see an online book of shadows? Not sure yet if I would make a separate page or if this would be a series of posts. I could even set up a new site, if I got a large response. So, what say you? Would you like to see what kind of a Witchcraft practice I have?

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Walking

I have a couple of problems. Actually, far more than that but we'll stick to the ones I just solved. I need to exercise and I am behind on my guild show project. Today I combined the two. I am sewing while walking around my kitchen. This is slow going on both counts, but I figure some is better than none. I feel more relaxed. I had the idea to maybe do a walking meditation. This may become another change in my practice.

Monday, June 12, 2017

The Adjustments

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I got a moment alone. Well, my daughter is here but she's not going to object to me casting spells.

Lots of things are bothering me. This morning I started doing something about them.

The first problem is how filthy the house has become. My cleaning schedule isn't working due to the sheer number of people here. We now have 7 people living in the house full time and my son's girlfriend who has a toddler is here every weekend which brings us to 9. And then there is a parade of people in and out. I cannot begin to describe the stickiness of the kitchen floor. Think of walking through a cinnamon bun. Apparently someone spilled a sugar concoction then tried to clean it up but they didn't do a very good job. Obviously it was a hide the evidence before Mom comes home, not a take responsibility for my mess.

I told oldest son what was expected of him this morning. Then I started cleaning. After dusting my clock, I set the pendulum to swinging. I think it is important to keep energy flowing. That is going to be my goal- to remove anything that impedes chi and to dissolve blocks.

Then I gave the younger boys more cleaning chores. All the work shouldn't fall on me.

I used my broom to sweep away problems. I feel better. Having a plan works wonders for me.

The school problem became a dead issue. While we debated, questioned, and second guessed ourselves, we were waiting for husband's younger sister to decide if she was willing to let our son stay with her. The night before we went to pick up the boys, I sent a text asking if she would meet us in Birmingham because it is a long drive to Huntsville and we were exhausted from driving to North Carolina earlier in the week. Instead of agreeing, or coming up with an alternative, she called her parents whining that we didn't want to get the boys. Then my father-in-law called us and my husband decided if she was going to be difficult about a summer visit then little sister couldn't be trusted with parenting decisions. So I can't do anything but enroll my son in a school where he's not doing well because he's barely being educated, but at least I can stop worrying about making the right choice. I'll take what I can get for now.

Friday, June 9, 2017

Answers in Dreams

Last night I dreamed I was in a cemetery. Many of the graves were covered with crystals. It is an old custom here in the South to lay stones on graves. This was usually done on the grave of the head of a family during funerals. Each head of household would bring a stone to place on their father or grandfather's grave as they left the cemetery. I don't think anyone does it anymore, but my cousin Isaac's grave still has a pile of small rocks around the marker. In my dream, it looked as though entire communities has brought crystals. They completely covered the graves in a pile several inches high. All the crystals were large and of very high quality. I picked up several and guiltily thought of taking some home. Then I had the thought that I had been in the cemetery before and left crystals there. I remembered reading about leaving potted plants on graves and placing dirt from the grave into the pot. This is how people collected graveyard dirt without drawing suspicion. In my dream I decided I could trade out crystals I already had for ones I wanted. I decided that was fair without getting into grave robbing.

The dream was short, but very vivid. I haven't done any kind of cemetery magick since I lived in Tallapoosa County. I think this might be the direction I need to take in my practice. When we went to pick up our oldest son I remarked on how many cemeteries we passed in north Georgia. My husband told me that the area had been settled since colonial times. I remembered Georgia was one of the 13 original colonies. We talked for a while about history and visiting old cemeteries. This may be something we could do together.

I also like the idea of using more crystals. I sort of dropped it when the chakra bed spell didn't pan out. If you don't remember, I placed colored crystals under our mattress to align and strengthen our chakras while we slept. The crystals never stayed in place and I stopped sleeping from the extra energy surging through my body. After that I didn't do many spells involving crystals. I do have 100's. Leaving some in cemeteries might solve a storage problem.

I don't think this is the single answer. I think probably the Universe has more to tell me. I just need to pay attention and read the signs.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

The Children

We finally got the oldest out of jail in Virginia and got him back home in Alabama. It was not easy, nothing went as plained, and nothing was the way we were told it would be.

The feeling I have over and over is surreal. My art instructor used to say that surrealist paintings never seemed to have enough air in them. That's how I feel, like I can't take a deep enough breath or I shouldn't breathe for fear of sucking in water or gas.

We got home yesterday evening. I feel a burning desire to practice my craft, but I am not sure what I should be doing. It is very obvious my daily practice should change, but I have no idea what it is now. I felt stirrings of change before. I had ideas of new things to try. But now I know everything should be different and that is just a bit overwhelming, almost as though I am questioning who I am.

I think part of this feeling stems from watching my husband's ex wife be fake nice. She put on a show of being firmly loving instead of admitting her son didn't want to stay with her because as soon as he was sentenced in Virginia, she moved to North Carolina. She never visited. Never wrote. Never sent money. I started thinking if she had really demonstrated tough love when he moved up then most of these problems wouldn't have occurred.

Too, I have noticed how the family dematic changed with the second oldest son. He is acting as if he has been deliberately kept from his brother and there is an air of desperation as he tries to cram in as much togetherness as possible but before now we could barely get him to have a phone conversation.

I now have less privacy and time. I now have an extra person to drive around because we don't have a running car to give him. He still doesn't have a bed. He has a toothbrush but not soap, shampoo, razors, or deodorant. There's more cooking to do, more schedules to conflict.

I don't think my simple spells are going to work. We need more than cooking spells and carefully tied knots. I think I need cast circles and screaming for the gods, demanding that things go our way.

The younger boys are still with their aunt so they don't know another person will be sharing their room. We go get them Saturday. Yay, more driving.

We are also debating changing schools. This is not easy at all. Our county dictates we must send our children to the school closest to us whether they actually receive the education they need or not. Our choices are private school, which we can't afford, and resend custody which we are obviously reluctant to do.

I think I'm going to try a meditation  (if I can get a quiet moment) and maybe journaling to see if any patterns or solutions come up. Friday may become my Witchy day since that is when my daughter goes to grandma. As I work through my new life I will post updates.

Monday, May 22, 2017

Fidget Spinners & Other Tools

Before I could do any kind of work, I had to clean off the counter. This actually isn't that bad for a Monday morning. We didn't go out much this weekend so less stuff accumulated.
I am hesitant to put anything back.
While cleaning, I realized the spinners will still spin when stacked. They don't spin for very long, but it is still possible. This is an interesting possibility. The spells that come to my mind are time spells, alignment of energies, chakras, planets, or stituations, and bringing opposites together. Or splitting things if you wanted to cause discord. There's lots of possibilities and if I studied this for a while I could probably think of many more.
Here is my magick mirror in a crystal circle with the fidget spinner on top. I chose another prosperity spell because while we haven't run out of money, and while we have received more than expected, what I asked for hasn't yet come to fruition. I'm not sure how timing works with this type of working. This is new magick for me and I have a lot to learn.

Here's a 30 second video of the spell in progress. It was difficult to film without light reflections blinding the camera. I tried shifting around until I had a clear view. And yes, that's my dryer you hear in the background. I like the idea of doing more videos but I'm not sure how practical it is to film while I'm casting spells because for most things I need both hands.
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Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Fidget Spinner Spell

I finally got a moment to try magick with the fidget spinner. I think it works well, at least as far as energy goes, but as I just don't know how well the spell worked.

I tried chanting and giving it a spin with each line but that was very disrupted. My speaking didn't match the spinner. Next I tried saying what I wanted then spinning. That worked great. When the fidget spinner stopped, I repeated my wish and spun again. I think I did it 5 or 6 times.

I want to try another spell with the fidget spinner, next time using other tools.  What would happen if I put the spinner on my magick mirror, or in the middle of a crystal grid, or if I chalked runes into it? I think the spell was successful but I ended up with more questions than answers.